I can’t let down my guard because when I do I start to experience this little thing called deja vu. They leave me, cheat on me, lose interest in me…but why? Am I bringing this on myself or is it just not my time?
You see, now I have to protect my heart because I don’t want to feel this pain again…It’s too much to bear. Crying for hours, locking myself away from the rest of the world…from those who actually care about me. I don’t even recognize myself.
Is it easier to just avoid falling in love or is it worth it to take a leap of faith? I don’t have the answer, but this natural caution can easily turn into a brutal defense system. This defense will make it hard to connect with anyone else that may try to come into my life keeping me away from love indefinatley…all because I couldn’t let my guard down. What am I really protecting by building this wall? My heart or my ego? Continue reading